Letting Go

To let go doesn't mean to stop caring. It means I can't do it for someone else.To let go is not to cut myself off. It's the realisation that I can't control another.To let go is not to enable, but to allow learning from natural consequences.To let go is to admit powerlessness, which means the outcome is not in my hands.To let go is not to try to change or blame another. I can only change myself.To let go is not to care for, but to care about.To let go is not to fix, but to be supportive.To let go is not to judge, but to allow another to be a human being. To let go is not to be in the middle arranging all the outcomes,         but to allow anothers to effect their own outcomes.To let go is not to be protective, it is to permit another to face reality.To let go is not to denby, but to accept.To let go is not to nag, scowl, ort argue, but to search out my own shortcomings and to correct them.To let go is not to adjust everything to my desires, but to take each day as it comes.To let go is not to regret the past, but to grow and live for the future.To let go is to fear lessand love more.

也许是讽刺，在刚刚从平行班转入理科实验班时，我自以为什么都可以做到，不顾别人的感受。我自以为可以让所有我爱的喜欢的都得到让他们生活得更好的能力，结果三年下来……什么都是一团糟。

回顾三年来我做的一切，我能做的，也只有这一句话了。

I'll let it go, go and fly away, like the wind, like the shadow cast by the flowing clouds...

至于期待……尽管说过不再做梦，但“生命本来就是一束耀眼的花火，我们怎能不等她开放就凋落……”，我还不应该放弃希望的吧。